Trooper_IHB
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Gosh, I got some sad news a few hours ago. An old friend passed away in her sleep on Thursday...
Now, Jacqui was someone that I met in 1985 when we were both living in Provincetown, Massachusetts. She was 10 years older than I was, so our friendship was more of a "big sister" type deal... she kept me in line when my life was slightly out of kilter. I'll never forget that.
So, while I'm remembering her, I'm experiencing a lot of emotions. Many of them have to do with how young she was when she passed, and about "have I done enough in my life?" If I left the world tomorrow, have I made as much of a difference as I could/should have ?
It's a very odd feeling, and somewhat frightening.....I have not lost very many people in my life to natural death.
Now, I'm not looking for any "I'm sorry for your loss" comments. I'm more so wondering if what I'm feeling is normal, and how do you get over that sudden panicky feeling ? The feeling like, omg... I could die anytime too. Will I ever own the restored '72 Bronco? Have I done enough? Will I ever have my dream home? Are my parents proud? Will I ever find an ideal mate ? et al.
Thoughts?
My dear friend Jacqui -
<img src="http://www.provincetownlive.net/system/image.php?file=853_jacqui.jpg&width=468" alt="" />
Now, Jacqui was someone that I met in 1985 when we were both living in Provincetown, Massachusetts. She was 10 years older than I was, so our friendship was more of a "big sister" type deal... she kept me in line when my life was slightly out of kilter. I'll never forget that.
So, while I'm remembering her, I'm experiencing a lot of emotions. Many of them have to do with how young she was when she passed, and about "have I done enough in my life?" If I left the world tomorrow, have I made as much of a difference as I could/should have ?
It's a very odd feeling, and somewhat frightening.....I have not lost very many people in my life to natural death.
Now, I'm not looking for any "I'm sorry for your loss" comments. I'm more so wondering if what I'm feeling is normal, and how do you get over that sudden panicky feeling ? The feeling like, omg... I could die anytime too. Will I ever own the restored '72 Bronco? Have I done enough? Will I ever have my dream home? Are my parents proud? Will I ever find an ideal mate ? et al.
Thoughts?
My dear friend Jacqui -
<img src="http://www.provincetownlive.net/system/image.php?file=853_jacqui.jpg&width=468" alt="" />